UGH!!!

I hate my neighbors!!!

They are stupid white trash idiots with no respect for other people. They are loud and go outside "to smoke" at all hours of the night while talking loudly. They slam their door all through the night, and at least once a week there is some kind of drunken fight going on. I know that I am not the only one to complain because there were notes posted on all the doors in our area of the apartment complex reminding people of the apartment rules.

Then 2 days ago there was a drunken fight with other neighbors (apparently they are friends) which resulted in a gun going off in the apartment next to me. I called the police. The people scattered and when the police arrived (the girl next door told the police that a gun did go off by accident because "she dropped it" (I was listening through the door. They are very thin and you can hear anything being said if the door of their apartment is open) and she told the police that there was a fight but the gun happened long after it was over and the people were gone.

WTF?

I cant wait until monday so I can go and complain AGAIN to the office.



Now katie lived in the same complex for a long time and never had any REAL BIG problems. And I lived with her here and had NO problems. The rest of the complex is quiet and everything seems cool. How did I get the dysfunctional neighbors?



UGH!!!

Why?

Why are we as people scared of things that are uncertain, things that are new, things that are different?

Its just crazy.

Something hit me hard. I had a glimpse of what could of been. It made me question my thinking. I had to go back to that place and time and look at why I made the decision that I did. But who knows if it would have really turned out that way for me. Would I have been happy? Would I have made other people happy?

Well, Its too late now. I missed out.

words of wisdom

Some quotes that seem to fit into the pieces of me.


"I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions."



"Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed. Who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault."


"You learn a lot about people when you listen to the songs that mean something to them."


"Wounded people are dangerous; they know they can survive."


"It's not about being who everyone else wants you to be, it's about being yourself & finding someone who loves every single bit of it."

I still dont understand

why celebrities have to give their kids such crazy ass names.


I expected better from you Wentz family. :(

in the ghetto...

Today I had Church's Chicken for Dinner.


Yum.


It reminds me of when I was a little kid growing up in the Ghetto of North Bryan.

Haha.

falling hard

Go rent this movie:




so amazing. Visually stunning.

Just do it.

price cutting the cheese

amen.

gas is finally below $2 in Arizona!!!!

k bell & quinto

So I finally caught up on Heroes season 3. It started out slow, but is getting soooooo good!!! And finally a Kristen Bell and Zachary Quinto "hook-up". Its like a match made in "nerd" heaven. Haha. I'm kind of sad that they are ending up on the "villians" side. But do we know which side is really the "villians" side? Hmmm. I guess we'll have to see!!

:)

My mom is amazing.

How did I get so lucky?

elephants

So for those of you falling in love
Keep it kind
Keep it good
Keep it right
Throw yourself in the midst of danger
But keep one eye open at night

movie night!

I'm Watching:



Hocus Pocus

My favorite movie to watch during the halloween season. It's funny and Disney. I got it at Best Buy the other day for $5. :)




Rob Zombie's Halloween

This is one of the better Horror movie Remakes. Plus Scout Taylor Compton is adorable and the Ending is AMAZING!!




The Orphanage

This is a good creepy movie. I usually never have nightmares or dream about things from movies, but the creepy kid with the bag on his head kept randomly popping up in my dreams for a few days after I first watched this. haha.

umm...thanks?

Have you ever been told that you look like somebody famous? Well there are 2 or 3 people that I get occasionally, and all of them are completely different. And 2 of them in my opinion are not very complementary. So why would you tell somebody that they look like somebody if that is obviously not a compliment? Thanks. Now my day is ruined. I need a carton of Blue Bell and a spoon.

disappointment

Circus did not live up to the hype.

Blackout was better.


:(

Side Dish Friend?

Somebody asked where I got the URL name for my blog. So here is the explanation:

It's the title of a song by Rachael Yamagata. I know we have all felt this way, and we have all most likely treated somebody like this, so I thought it worked.

But, eh, what do I know?


SIDE DISH FRIEND

Do you want to be my side dish friend?
Cause I'll miss you if go for good, yeah
We could stay together till the very end of time

If it's understood

That I don't want you hanging out with me
But, I want you when I call
We can stay together separately
and we won't be lonely at all

oh boy, oh boy
got to think about that
oh boy

Do you want to be the one on hold?
cause you know I'll always come right back, yeah
We can find a quiet place for both of us to go

If you always know

That I don't want you hanging out with me
But, I want you when I call
We can stay together separately
and we won't be lonely at all

oh boy, oh boy
got to think about that

cause every time
I think
I'm all right
I think
I'll win you over

I hear you say

That I don't want you hanging out with me
But, I want you when I call
We can stay together separately
and we won't be lonely at all

I don't want to get too close to you
and I don't want you close to me
there's a back door waiting just for you
if this isn't what you need

There's a back door waiting just for you
if this isn't what you need.

One is the Lonliest Number

So, over the past few weeks I have begun to realize all the people that I miss. I am thousands of miles away from the people that I love the most. I miss different people for different reasons.

I miss elizabeth because she is the one person I feel like I can tell anything to. We always have fun just being lazy. We are never in a hurry and share a love for movies. Her mom is awesome and I consider to be my second mother. I love her niece Mikayla and sister Mel like they are my own family.

I miss Andrea, Geronimo and Miyah. They were my family for many years. Andrea and I have a weird connection. We are complete opposites and like different things, but we are always there for each other through thick and thin. People always looked at us as an odd pair. But we know that our hearts beat to the same rythym. We are best friends. I also wish I could see Miyah growing up everyday. She makes my smile brighten and my heart melt when she talks her "baby talk" to me on the phone.

I miss all my Houston concert buddies (way too many to name. They know who they are). There was always someone to go to a show with. So many different people with different taste. I have eclectic taste, so I mix with all of them.

I miss my mom, dad and sister. Even though we don't always get along, its good to be able to just go home and be surrounded by family. I love them so much. There is so much of me in them. Its like a safety zone to be with them.

I miss Tater Tot. She is like the little sister that I always wanted my real sister to be more like. She is growing up so fast. I like to hear about her going through the same things and making the same mistakes that most teenagers make. Its what makes people stronger and shapes their character.

I miss all the random echelon. Most of them are amazing people and all have special qualities about them. Its like a big dysfunctional family, but no matter where you go in this world, there is always an echelon you can call to be there for you.

I miss Melissa. Our Road trips are crazy. We've driven and flown everywhere. I miss our swapping and suggesting music to each other. I miss our constantly quoting DEATHPROOF. I miss the nissanversa (one word. Hiro style). I miss Melissa's infectious laugh.

I also miss what I used to have with Bekah. She made a huge decision and it changed her life and the the lives of her friends forever. It made her grow up. I miss our "dropped calls". They were always better than the actual commercials. I miss our insane laughing spells.

I also really miss all my WM friends. Such an eclectic group of people. I always had a blast working with them. Never a dull moment.

I miss Katie, who is really far away in Korea. I miss our inside jokes, our fights, our trips. Her baking was the best. But most of all, I miss us being mean. Nobody can do it like we did.:)

I miss J.J.. He is mysterious, but for some reason I am drawn to him. The cards told me that I am drawn to him because we are so similar, and am looking for answers about myself. But whatever it, Its magnetic.

I miss K.H.. She represents, to me, all the fun that I want to have, and my inner thoughts, feeling, and goofiness that I have always want to display to the world, but never had the courage to do. She does those things and doesn't think twice. She is amazing. I'm glad it wont be long before I see her again.

I miss wiL. He is the badass, the inner nerd, and the dark thoughts that I keep to myself. He puts those things out there for the world to see, and people seem to be ok with it.

I miss Henry. We like to complain about the same things. We also have a keen eye for whats wrong with people. And we both share an avid love of Chipotle. He is hilarious and can always make me smile. And he is also tranny fierce. And you cant deny somebody that fierce!!! LOL

I miss people from my past. People from my youth and high school days. It seems like we had so much fun. Some of them I have some contact with through vary places, such as myspace and facebook, but its still not the same. Then there are still ones out there I wonder about.


But for all the people I miss, I seem to miss myself the most, because being with those people seem to bring out the real me. The happy me. The person I want to be.