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I hate not have the internetz at home. :(


but in the words of Jared Leto, "Soon!", I will. :)

it always seems...

that when things start going well, that something will go wrong and throw a kink in everything. It seems I can never get ahead.

*sigh*

No matter how you try, no matter how hard WE try, its just not the same anymore. It makes me sad. We try and try but I don't think its gonna happen. Every time we get close it just doesn't happen. I still enjoy spending time with you. I love you. You are amazing. I guess we just have to realize that everything has changed and there is no going back. Tonight was almost like old times, but then ...

chasing cars to crash land and burst into flames

This week has been boring.

Tomorrow is the free Snow Patrol concert at the Clubhouse. Teresa, Bekah, Mike, Chelsea, Joseph, Lena, and I are going. It should be fun.

Then next Wed, Bekah, Mike and I are making the trek to LA to see The Limousines. It should be Epic. Sushi with Bloo and Eric before the show, a quick stop at Hairrion to pick up my Limited Edition Audrey Kitching V neck (I will rock that shit proudly. LOL.) and Cake, Party Hats, Booze, and Herb at the show in celebration of Bloo's Birthday!!!!

:)

This epic-ness is only missing one person. :( But they will be there in spirit.

UGH!!!

I hate my neighbors!!!

They are stupid white trash idiots with no respect for other people. They are loud and go outside "to smoke" at all hours of the night while talking loudly. They slam their door all through the night, and at least once a week there is some kind of drunken fight going on. I know that I am not the only one to complain because there were notes posted on all the doors in our area of the apartment complex reminding people of the apartment rules.

Then 2 days ago there was a drunken fight with other neighbors (apparently they are friends) which resulted in a gun going off in the apartment next to me. I called the police. The people scattered and when the police arrived (the girl next door told the police that a gun did go off by accident because "she dropped it" (I was listening through the door. They are very thin and you can hear anything being said if the door of their apartment is open) and she told the police that there was a fight but the gun happened long after it was over and the people were gone.

WTF?

I cant wait until monday so I can go and complain AGAIN to the office.



Now katie lived in the same complex for a long time and never had any REAL BIG problems. And I lived with her here and had NO problems. The rest of the complex is quiet and everything seems cool. How did I get the dysfunctional neighbors?



UGH!!!

Why?

Why are we as people scared of things that are uncertain, things that are new, things that are different?

Its just crazy.

Something hit me hard. I had a glimpse of what could of been. It made me question my thinking. I had to go back to that place and time and look at why I made the decision that I did. But who knows if it would have really turned out that way for me. Would I have been happy? Would I have made other people happy?

Well, Its too late now. I missed out.

words of wisdom

Some quotes that seem to fit into the pieces of me.


"I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions."



"Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed. Who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault."


"You learn a lot about people when you listen to the songs that mean something to them."


"Wounded people are dangerous; they know they can survive."


"It's not about being who everyone else wants you to be, it's about being yourself & finding someone who loves every single bit of it."